January 11, 2011 Getting ready
As I’m preparing to leave for Kansas city, I’m feeling like there’s more I have to do before I go! Like I haven’t finished doing everything I’m supposed to do before I leave for 6 intense months!! I’m scared of leaving things behind. Things I’m supposed to do, people I want to see.. the comfort of my own home~~ I remember being so excited and only thrilled to go, because I was looking ahead at what I was to gain, What I was to learn and grow in, What I’d be immersed in. But now… as the time to leave draws nearer, approaching my loved friends and family about where I’m heading, where I won’t be for 6 months, being so close to my loved ones again and all the familiar things of my life so far, my focus has started to shift towards what I was leaving behind.. what I’d possibly miss while I’m gone.. This has been what’s been tugging at my heart in recent days.. causing me to think up doubts about my decisions, convictions, actions, and follow-through.. the “should I?” questions started popping up left and right.
But as I got to meet up with and speak with my friends one-on-one, in person, the last 2 days, I’ve been so encouraged by their enthusiastic responses! 
Almost everyone was excited and happy for me and what I’d learn and grow in while there at IHOP-KC *International House of Prayer in Kansas City*! Their excitement and hopeful thoughts and prayers for me and my future there were extremely encouraging and reassuring for me. I was so relieved that I was met by positive feelings and thoughts as opposed to other possible responses due to the suddenness of this news to everyone.
God is faithful and he will take care of everything even while I’m not around to help out physically. I’ve got to let go and trust God. Trust that he’s got everything covered. He’s got big plans for AAIV this semester and he’s got big plans for me apart from them as well. I’ve got to keep trusting and keep moving forward in faith and hope of His good and perfect will (plans).
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