November 27, 2010 500 Days of Summer: Response
Great movie. Very insightful and convicting. Glad I finally decided to watch it!
So, the ending was really bright and looking to a hopeful, promising future, but I was crying. Why? Because it made me realize what I had to do… I had to give him up so that he could find his “Autumn” and so that I could find mine too. That thought both saddened and thrilled me.
Saddened me because I had been struggling to give him up multiple times for a long stretch of time, and I was once again at a place where I was hopeful for something to start up in our relationship, for it to go deeper… and once again, I was finding a reason to distance myself in that way and to let go of the thought of our relationship going to anywhere other than ‘friendship’.
Thrilled me because I was reminded of the promise that once I had truly let go, I would be freed to see all that I was missing. There would be room in my heart, in my life, to meet and see the one that would make me feel sure of “something that I was never sure of with you.” And that made me hopeful for what is to come when I let go of the one that “I was never sure of”.
Although the main character and the whole audience may not know what was going on in Summer’s mind or in her heart, I could relate to a lot of why she may have done what she had done. There was a core issue in her heart that she could not let go of, nor could she let go of him, an interesting guy who she got along with really well and who took an interest in her. Conflict of interest within. Yet for her, it seemed so much easier to just go along with whatever she wanted to do with him, while I am more on the the spectrum of resisting doing what I want to do with him. Sometimes I allow myself to take a degree of action, but there’s always another part of me that listens to that resistance. Resistance leads to tension which would lead to some dissatisfaction deep within.
At the same time, had I gone through with everything that I had wanted to do in regards to him, I may have made him a very miserable man in the end. The during might have been somewhat enjoyable, but the end could have been possibly tormenting. Although, thinking back, the during has been both enjoyable and tormenting alternately anyways, might as well have enjoyed it more while I had the opportunities? yeah? .. I guess my hope is that my torment was not in vain. I have to hope and sort of trust that in exchange for my torment, he was spared a lot of torment, both during and in the end. I have to trust that, or I will be regretful, for the things that could have been and the things that are not.
“I really do hope you’re happy.”
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